Wednesday, September 7, 2016

Parenting my Heart, 5 Years Later

For a Parent on the Death of a Child
No one knows the wonder
Your child awoke in you,
Your heart a perfect cradle
To hold its presence.
Inside and outside became one
As new waves of love
Kept surprising your soul.

Now you sit bereft
Inside a nightmare,
Your eyes numbed
By the sight of a grave
No parent should ever see.

You will wear this absence
Like a secret locket,
Always wondering why
Such a new soul
Was taken home to soon.

Let the silent tears flow
And when your eyes clear
Perhaps you will glimpse
How your eternal child
Has become the unseen angel
Who parents your heart
And persuades the moon
to send new gifts ashore.

Written by John O’Donohue and published in  “To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings”


Thank you, Jack, for all the gifts you have given me in life and in death. Loving you is an honor. I choose joy every day, and I bet that makes you proud.

XOXO, 

Mom

40 comments:

Shannon said...

Beautiful. Remembering your family always. Honoring Jack forever.

Peg said...

Abiding with you and your family on this day.

Elaine Alguire said...

<3

Theresa O said...

Thinking of you on this day Anna and always. Wishing you peace. As tears come to my eyes reading this, we know Jack is so very proud of you. You groovy, amazing mom that you are!! :) Prayers and comfort wished upon you today. May Andrew give you several smiles and giggles to warm your heart.

Kate Coveny Hood said...

Sending so much love Anna!

Heidi Cave said...

Beautiful. So much love to you, Anna.

Allison said...

Thinking of you and Jack today. Sending love and light.

jannybelle said...

Praying for you all ❤️
Forever in your hearts

Ann said...

My heart is with you, Anna - especially today. I found this quote that really speaks to me about the loss of my own son:

"I loved the boy with the utmost love of which my soul is capable, and he is taken from me - yet in the agony of my spirit in surrendering such a treasure, I feel a thousand times richer than if I had never possessed it." Wm Wordsworth

Wishing you strength and peace on this difficult day. xoxo

Stimey said...

I saw a blue ribbon that was tied around a tree for some reason at my Jack's school a couple of days ago and I thought of your Jack. He has touched so many, as have you. He is always remembered. My love to you today and every day.

Kara Shepherd said...

Sending love and prayers to you. Thanks for sharing this beautiful poem.

Debby@Just Breathe said...

You are always in my heart. I'm always thinking about your heart. May God hold you close today and always. Thank you for sharing your poem. ((Hugs))

claire plante said...

Dearest Anna,

I have been thinking of you nonstop this morning. The poem by John O'Donohue is so fitting and beautiful. Sending love, hugs and blessings to you - every day and especially today.

Love of love,
Claire

ella said...

Jack will never, ever be forgotten. I hope that brings you at least a little bit of comfort. xoxo

Anonymous said...

Remembering Jack today. Sending love to you and your beautiful family. XO, NoVa Mom Jen

Sisterhood of the Sensible Moms said...

You remind me to always choose joy. Thank you and much love to you. Ellen

julie gardner said...

I'll bet he's proud too. Beyond measure.
Like your love.

Kelley Weninger said...

Thinking of you and praying for you today dear friend, in the joy and the sorrow. I love that you choose joy every day... it reminds me to do the same.

Joyce said...

Sending love and prayers your way! xo

Anonymous said...

I woke up early this morning thinking of your Jack. I hold you both close in my heart and send my love and prayers to you and your family today and always.

Susan said...

God bless you and your family. Beautiful poem. He's proud of you. We all are.

Alexandra said...

Let so many of us, say his name and hold his spirit in our hearts. Jack, we love you.

Famous '67 said...

Remembering you & your family on this crapeversiary. I pray for you often...my son (my only child) is the same age as your Jack. Holding you in prayer.

Anonymous said...

Much love and prayers from another Jack's mom in Canada. Your Jack will always be remembered.

Janet

Kiri said...

"The unseen angel who parents your heart." Coming up to the fourth anniversary of my daughter's death, this resonates with me. I watched Nick Cave's new movie last night, shot within months of his son's death. I could relate to so much of what he was saying, but glad I am not in that place any more where nothing makes sense and the narrative of your life is ripped away.

Riham said...

Sending more prayers and love your way during September <3

Michelle said...

I've never commented before (that I can remember), but your strength, grace, and humor inspire me every time I read. Jack is beaming with pride in heaven..

Fiona LilyfieldLife said...

beautiful boy. thinking of you xx

Jeanie said...

Many blessings to you and your family.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing your Jack with us. What a beautiful boy.

Anonymous said...

Tim, Anna, Margaret and Andrew
Thinking of you all today and sending love and prayers your way. We will never forget Jack.
Your camping buddies - The Dericos

Kerry S. said...

Much love to all of you and your sweet Jack.

Anonymous said...

❤️ Prayers for you and your family tonight.

Tara W said...

Thank you, Anna. I remember Jack today, and I am hold you, Tim, Margaret, and Andrew close to my heart. Sending you love and comfort from Seattle.

Amy Wilson said...

God bless you and yours today Anna. Jack was such a beautiful boy.

Erika said...

Sending much love to you and your beautiful family.

angela said...

Beautiful. Sending love and prayers.

Katie Mansfield said...

Well, I found your blog today. Prayers for you. There are no words. I'm so sorry.

NanaDiana said...

Jack was such a special young man. I am so sorry that you didn't get to see him grown into adulthood. It is such a pain to think about what he might be like today. A life partially lived is just so sad. Blessings to you- I think of you often. xo Diana

Stephanie said...

Sending prayers and strength.