It was our last night
in this remote Mayan village on the Yucatan Peninsula. For one week of our two week trip, we’d been
mixing cement, gravel and water on the ground, hauling it in buckets to the
church rooftop, and pouring it on top of the cinderblocks and beams we'd put there. The villagers
had taken years to build the walls of the building out of rocks and cement, but
they didn't have the resources to put a roof on the church. The
process had to be done quickly, all at once and at great expense, whereas the walls were built over time, rock by rock.
It was 1985 and this
was my church youth group’s first international mission trip. I was the
youngest participant at 15. It had been a week of hard work, laughter, and
inspiration, and next week we’d head to a different village to do it
again. Sleeping in a hammock in a thatch hut, turning over my steel toed work
boots each morning to shake out wayward scorpions, and belting out Barry Manilow
tunes while hoisting buckets of concretet overhead gave me an experience of a
lifetime.
My best self showed up
here. Not my vain, petty, self-conscious self. But a girl who could look
beyond her physical comfort for just a little while, and be connected to God
and His people. Trench latrines didn't bother me, and showering fully dressed outside in the rain during afternoon thunderstorms made me feel cleaner than my shower at home. I felt born for this.
Standing among the short Mayan women, I felt tall even at just 5.5. But I also felt small. For the first time I was experiencing a world beyond my suburban lifestyle, and I was experiencing God beyond Sunday School classes and youth group.
Standing among the short Mayan women, I felt tall even at just 5.5. But I also felt small. For the first time I was experiencing a world beyond my suburban lifestyle, and I was experiencing God beyond Sunday School classes and youth group.
I was among people who believed
in God’s provision, in miracles, and the transforming power of faith not as an
add-on to their regular, busy lives, but as the cornerstone. Their everything. Not for a week, but every day.
I thought of the church walls as a metaphor for a daily life of faith, little by little, growing and reaching toward the sky.
I thought of the church walls as a metaphor for a daily life of faith, little by little, growing and reaching toward the sky.
As we stood outside
that night, looking at the dark sky, cuddling the swaddled babies one last
time, we said our goodbyes. Even though I would come back year after year, it would
not be to this village ever again. The women said something in Mayan, and
someone translated it into Spanish. One of the Spanish speakers in our group
repeated it in English, “Until we meet again in heaven, Until we meet again in
heaven.”
And I couldn’t fathom
in this great big world that I’d see these new friends again. I wasn’t even sure
that’s how it all worked, but I knew that they loved God, and I loved God,
so we were connected.
WOW.
ReplyDeleteAhhh, the hammock, thatch roof story is revealed. This is beautiful. Especially the ending. xoxo
ReplyDeleteBeautiful.
ReplyDeleteThat gave me chills. Beautiful, Anna.
ReplyDelete~Ashley in Louisiana
This is especially timely for me as I leave on my first international mission trip next week. Thank you for your ability to share and inspire others.
ReplyDeleteWow. This touched my soul. What an amazing experience that must have been.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful!
ReplyDeleteVery beautiful & sounds like the experience was also!
ReplyDeleteYes. People are more alike than they know.
ReplyDelete(get THIS: my captcha is "know calmed.") can you believe it.
Gorgeous Anna
ReplyDeleteAnd for what it's worth, I only ever notice your better self.
so beautiful xx
ReplyDeleteVery sweet post.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, beautiful. Thanks for sharing. I love your writing.
ReplyDeleteLoved this one.
ReplyDeleteOddly enough, 11 yrs ago I was able to go to Bangladesh on a mission trip. And today several of the people from Bangladesh were in my hometown today!!
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful!
ReplyDeleteI've been reading your blog since just after Jack's accident. I check it every day for new posts and to catch up on your lives. I don't think there will ever be a time that I don't come to check in on you.
ReplyDeleteI wanted to say, while I don't personally believe in God (I'm much more spiritual than religious), this post really spoke to me. I could feel the connection you were talking about with the women you've met. And although we've never met and most likely never will, I feel a connection with you, your family and most of all with Jack. I believe that there was a reason I found your blog in the first place and I still to this day feel a pull to come back.
You call it God, I call it the Universe. Whatever "it" is, I'm glad it's there or else I never would have found you. Your story has inspired me more than you will know.
Outstanding! I love coming here and reading you. Your book is going to be amazing, no doubt. Thank you for letting me into your world. Debby
ReplyDeleteAnna I have been following your blog only on my phone as of late, and it is very difficult for me to comment via phone. So I have been lurking! But I had the opportunity to comment today. This is a beautiful piece, and you have been writing some really touching posts, too. Though I may not comment often anymore, I love your writing and I think you have important things to say. Hope the book is coming along nicely.
ReplyDeleteIt's amazing when and how connection happens. It's when god feels big and heaven feels possible for me. Beautiful.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful.
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